There goes another partner and a lot more. Why? Because I have a paunch. I’m 65 and I have a paunch. I worked very hard at this relationship. I shaved every other day , which I loathe. I stopped smoking admittedly it was the right thing to do but I had been through cancer without stopping. You see we were due to meet in rl and I couldn’t have the smell of tobacco about me. I started going to the gym and went on a diet again for a good reason I have high cholesterol but this alone wouldn’t have been enough to make me change my way of life. It was trying to reach the “stunning” level. “Stunning” is how she describes herself with a weight of 62 kilos. I was 82 down to 80 now. But in Skype there were the snide remarks about my weight. I upped my training regime as I knew it was the only way to get the pounds off and it was too much for me. I also changed my medication reducing my anti depressants by half. (they contribute to weight gain) I realised I would not have my paunch gone by February when we were due to meet.
She realised it too.
I had been there for all the milestones. Getting a cat, getting more cats, blogging about them, writing a book (s) and getting her in the frame of mind that writing is what she should be doing, deciding to return to the UK, getting the idea that maybe she didn’t need to work as she had done in Oz, all these things i had contributed to. And now I am discarded because I have a paunch. When I ended the relationship for yes twas I that did it, when I ended the relation ship the email went like this:
On 25 Sep 2014, at 5:24 pm, email@example.com wrote:
I told Siani we are having problems and she said: [2014/09/24 07:46] Siani: just keep in mind, life is short, and every minute together is precious, so no matter the fault, remember the love and put the small stuff aside [2014/09/24 07:48] Siani: make the first move, no matter the rights and wrongs, don’t make me get you both in a chat and bang your heads together
So I went back to see what the problem is : me being overweight. I have reduced my weight producing medication and tried to up my training regime but I know this will take longer than 6 months. This problem is insurmountable. I cannot become stunning like you. So go find someone who is and I will find someone who is less stunning. I am ending our partnership. You have told me frequently how many offers you get daily so I can’t see you having a problem. Lets stay friends. No need to disappear. I’m only in sl for hosting now. If you want to meet up let me know. Fond regards Philip / Dude
On 2014-09-25 02:34, Gmail she wrote:
A particularly nasty subject given my ethnicity. Clearly you already have someone in mind so I wont argue. Sent from my iPhone
(my reply)Your ethnicity? I have no idea what you are talking about. I have someone in mind????? OMG what a narrow minded person you are.
She is from Kings Lynn in Norfolk UK for gods sake whats “ethnic” about that? But the thing to notice is that there is no protest, no hurt, no thought to what we have been through. I therefore presume she is relieved and at the moment her pride is stopping her from being a proper human being.
Of course the paunch is only a metaphor for my lack of perfection something that Storm has achieved.