Relationships

You get so alone at times that it just makes sense….. Charles Bukowski

What did he mean when he wrote that? I’m alone at the moment because the person I was sharing with has left.  Nothing new there. It must be me. Ha! look at my history its not surprising. I give up doomed to walk alone but does it make sense? Well ultimately we are all alone. Is this what he meant?

I awoke to a message saying “ok” and a poem

I woke and a single tear fell slowly
as I fumbled on the floor to find
the clothes I wore before I met you.

I feel the love running away
like rain water,
building to a flood that I cannot stop.

I watch sunlight trickle through the trees
and wash the floor in light.

And that is love
bright
sharp
beautiful

and soon it will be dark and the love will be gone.

I expected “Remember you are loved” but got “ok” instead.  Self harm is a feature of my illness, but now I use a metaphorical knife to running across the wrists. This is done painfully in the dark hours of the night; I cannot sleep and when I do nightmares rule.

I cry.

So thats it?  No more love?

And soon it will be dark and love will be gone……..

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Author: Dude

63 with the energy of a 25 year old the coolness of a 30 something and the wisdom knowing that hiding your light under a bushel is daft

2 thoughts on “Relationships”

  1. I am glad its ok, gives me hope for my own dark moments, and my own sense of aloneness.
    And I wonder, often, is it me? Is it just me? Or are there 2 people feeling the same, scared the same, and not quite finding the words?

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