……and POOF

[04:57 PM] dudestarship2: y’knoe over three years i have made 247 videos on youtube
[04:57 PM] xxx: 🙂
[04:57 PM] xxx: i have never made one lol
[04:57 PM] dudestarship2: iover 95% of them , it ie only me
[04:57 PM] xxx: why did you think i was going to d ump you?
[04:58 PM] dudestarship2: i never have anyone with me
[04:58 PM] xxx: do you think we are a mistake?
[04:58 PM] dudestarship2: bbe cause i a always alone i can’t find anyine
[04:59 PM] dudestarship2: im feeling lost
[04:59 PM] dudestarship2: sorry
[04:59 PM] dudestarship2: i get like this
[04:59 PM] dudestarship2: it will pass
[05:00 PM] dudestarship2: i don’t want sex i want love
[05:00 PM] dudestarship2: i’m so sorry
[05:00 PM] xxx: its ok
[05:00 PM] dudestarship2: i feel so
[05:00 PM] dudestarship2: i’
[05:00 PM] xxx: alone
[05:00 PM] dudestarship2: fuc
[05:01 PM] dudestarship2: gimme a bit will take meds a bit
[05:01 PM] dudestarship2: gimme an hour
[05:01 PM] xxx: its ok i understand

[05:02 PM] xxx: im sorry too
[05:02 PM] dudestarship2: i hate being weak
[05:02 PM] xxx: maybe we rushed into this
[05:02 PM] xxx: you re not week
[05:02 PM] xxx: weak
[05:02 PM] xxx: im sorry i made you feel distraught
[05:03 PM] dudestarship2: not you you did nothing
[05:03 PM] dudestarship2: i want you to be my partner
[05:04 PM] xxx is Offline

You and your Second Life Partner have parted ways. xxx has decided to
end the partnership.

Best Regards,

Your Friends at Linden Lab

[Bold text mine]

Whenever I start getting close to a woman. I tell them I am bipolar, manic depressive. Subject to extreme highs and lows. They ALL say “It’s ok I understand” None of them do. The message I guess is that if you are mentally ill be prepared to get abused. They will stick the knife in and run. They will give you no explanation as to why they did it. This is the straight world. Be prepared to get taken advantage of. Normal people will not be tolerant. They hate disability but will never admit it. They pay lip service to being tolerant. They are not. You will forever be a second class person. So my message to all the disabled mentally ill people in the world :

FUCK EM! THE WANKERS! WE ARE KEWL! I WOULD RATHER BE MAD THAN LIVE IN THEIR PETTY IMPOVERISHED WORLD! THEY KNOW NOT THE HIGHS THEY KNOW NOT THE LOWS THEY ARE SHALLOW INSENSITIVE CLODS! DOOMED FOREVER TO BE HALF ALIVE.

WE ROCK!

List of people with Bi Polar Disorder:

Rigoberto Alpizar, shooting victim.[1]
Sophie Anderton, British model.[2]
Adam Ant, British musician.[3]
Emilie Autumn, American musician.[4]

B

Maria Bamford, American comedian.[5]
Andy Behrman, author of the book Electroboy: A Memoir of Mania.[6][7]
Max Bemis, frontman of the band Say Anything, spoke about his diagnosis in an interview with Spin magazine in 2006.[8]
Maurice Benard, actor. He has discussed his diagnosis with Oprah Winfrey, and has since become active in promoting bipolar awareness.[9]
Mary Kay Bergman, voice actress[10]
Ludwig Boltzmann, physicist and mathematician. He “suffered from an alternation of depressed moods with elevated, expansive or irritable moods.” [11]
Adrian Borland, British musician.[12]
Russell Brand, comedian and actor. “In a low-key admission at the end of the book, he says he was finally diagnosed with bipolar disorder – manic depression – after he kicked the drugs for good in 2002 which goes some way to explaining his almost superhuman indifference to the chaos and catastrophe that almost lead him to obscurity.”[13]
Andrea Breth, German stage-director.[14]
Jeremy Brett, actor.[15]

Philip Bryan aka Dude Starship
Brotha Lynch Hung, American rapper. He has discussed his diagnosis in various songs and interviews. [16]
Frank Bruno, boxer; was hospitalized for a short period and is currently on lithium.[17][18][19]
Barney Bubbles, graphic designer.[20][21]

C

Robert Calvert, musician, former Hawkwind frontman.[22][23]
Alastair Campbell, press advisor.[24][25]
Georg Cantor, mathematician. Cantor’s recurring bouts of depression from 1884 to the end of his life were once blamed on the hostile attitude of many of his contemporaries,[26] but these bouts can now be seen as probable manifestations of bipolar disorder.[27]
Quincy Carter, American football player [8]
Dick Cavett, television journalist. “CAVETT: Both in hypomanic, which I have had, and incidentally, one has to admit many patients say I am cured now, I am fine. But I must say I miss those hypomanic states. They are better off where they are.”[28]
Iris Chang, historian and journalist for the San Francisco Chronicle.[29]
John Clare, poet.[30][31]
Kurt Cobain, musician. His cousin, Beverly Cobain, a “registered nurse (…) [with] experience as a mental health professional” and author of a book, When Nothing Matters Anymore: A Survival Guide for Depressed Teens ISBN 1-57542-036-8, stated in an interview: “Kurt was diagnosed at a young age with Attention Deficit Disorder [ADD], then later with bipolar disorder; (…) As Kurt undoubtedly knew, bipolar illness can be very difficult to manage, and the correct diagnosis is crucial. Unfortunately for Kurt, compliance with the appropriate treatment is also a critical factor.”[32]
Neil Cole, former Australian Labor party politician. “Associate Professor Cole was the first politician in Australia or overseas to admit to having a mental illness, namely bipolar mood disorder.”[33]
Rosemary Clooney, singer and actress.[34]
Patricia Cornwell, American crime writer.[35][36]
Robert S. Corrington, theologist. In his book Riding the Windhorse: Manic-Depressive Disorder and the Quest for Wholeness[37] he gives a personal account of his own struggles with the condition.
Michael Costa, former Australian Labor party politician and Treasurer of NSW. “Mr Costa said a number of state parliamentary colleagues approached him about their mental health problems after he publicly revealed his battle with bipolar disorder in 2001.”[38]
Vincent Crane, keyboard player of Atomic Rooster.[39]

D

Ray Davies, musician: is openly bipolar; also see his autobiography, X-Ray.
Disco D, record producer and composer. On returning to the United States from his 2005 Australian trek, Shayman went public about his struggle with bipolar disorder.[40]
DMX (rapper), has spoken openly about his manic depression.[41]
Mike Doughty, musician. First described himself diagnosed as bipolar in 2007 on his blog.[42]
Robert Downey, Jr., actor. [43]
Charmaine Dragun, former Australian journalist/newsreader. Misdiagnosed with depression. Inquest concluded she had bipolar II disorder.[44]
Richard Dreyfuss, actor, BBC Documentary.[45]
Patty Duke, actress.[46]

E

Edward Elgar, an English composer, many of whose works such as the Enigma Variations and the Pomp and Circumstance Marches have achieved enduring popularity.[47]
Florbela Espanca, Portuguese poet.[48]

F

Carrie Fisher, actress and writer. “‘I ended up being diagnosed as a bipolar II,’ says Fisher.”[45][49]
Connie Francis, singer.[50]
Stephen Fry, actor, comedian and writer. Fry was the center of the Emmy Award-winning documentary Stephen Fry: The Secret Life of the Manic Depressive in which he openly shares his experiences of living with the disorder and interviews a number of celebrities who suffer from it as well.[45]
Mary Kay Fualaau, American schoolteacher who had sexual intercourse with 13 year old student.[51]
Justin Furstenfeld, Lead singer of the band, “Blue October”.[52]

G

Alan Garner, novelist. According to the Guardian, “In The Voice that Thunders (Harvill), a collection of critical and autobiographical essays, Garner casts light on his writing and thinking, and the role that manic depression plays in his creativity”.[53][54]
Paul Gascoigne, English footballer. “His second book, released this year, centres on his therapy – for alcoholism, eating disorders, OCD, and bipolar disorder, among others.”[55]
Mel Gibson, actor and director.[56]
Matthew Good, Canadian musician. He first disclosed his illness in a personal blog. It was during the writing and recording of Hospital Music that he suffered one of his worst episodes.[57]
Philip Graham, publisher and businessman. “It had finally penetrated to me that Phil’s diagnosis was manic-depression…” Katharine Graham (1997), Personal History, p. 328; Knopf, 1997, ISBN 0-394-58585-2 (book has numerous other references).
Macy Gray, musician and actor. As documented in an interview with Saul Williams.[58][59]
Graham Greene, English novelist.[60] Extract from Graham Greene: A Life in Letters: “Greene was managing the impulses of bipolar illness, involving mood swings from elation, expansiveness or irritability to despair and would quickly be guilty of repeated infidelities.”
Ivor Gurney, English composer and poet.[61]

H

Beth Hart, Singer, songwriter, musician, painter. [62]
Terry Hall, lead singer of The Specials.[63]
Linda Hamilton, actress. Star of the Terminator movies. Was diagnosed at the age of 40.[64]
Robert Hansen, serial killer.[65]
Mariette Hartley, American actress, has publicly spoken about her bipolar disorder.[66]
Jonathan Hay, Australian rules footballer[67]
Ernest Hemingway, writer [68][69]
Kristin Hersh, musician, of rock band Throwing Muses, has spoken about her bipolar disorder.[70]
Abbie Hoffman, political activist: “Abbie was diagnosed in 1980 as having bipolar disorder, more commonly known as manic depression.” [71]
Marya Hornbacher, writer. Hornbacher wrote Madness, a memoir of her struggle with bipolar disorder, after writing Wasted, which detailed her eating disorder.

I

Jack Irons, drummer, formerly of Red Hot Chili Peppers and Pearl Jam.[72]

J

Jesse Jackson, Jr., American politician and son of civil rights pioneer.[73]
Kay Redfield Jamison, clinical psychologist and Professor of Psychiatry at the Johns Hopkins University School of Medicine, who profiled her own bipolar disorder in her 1995 memoir An Unquiet Mind and argued for a connection between bipolar disorder and artistic creativity in her 1993 book, Touched with Fire.
Daniel Johnston, musician: “Johnston’s output in his late teens and early 20s proved to be a symptom of his worsening manic depression.” The Guardian Unlimited, Saturday August 20, 2005: “Personal demons”, review of film, The Devil and Daniel Johnston:[74]
Andrew Johns, Australian rugby league player. Publicly announced his condition following retirement.[75]
Lee Joon, Korean actor and musician [76]
Chris Joseph, author of Manicdotes: There’s Madness in His Method.[77]

K

Chris Kanyon American professional wrestler.[78]
Kerry Katona, English television presenter, writer, magazine columnist and former pop singer with girl band Atomic Kitten. BBC.[79]
Rep. Patrick J. Kennedy has been open about mental health issues, including being diagnosed with bipolar disorder.[80]
Otto Klemperer, conductor.[81]
Margot Kidder, actress — self-described.[82]
Patrick Kroupa, writer and hacker, has been very open about his drug use and mental health issues, after his last heroin detox in 1999. He mentions bipolar disorder openly in several interviews.[83][84][85]

L

Debra LaFave, schoolteacher who had sexual relations with minor student.[86]
Vivien Leigh, actress[87]
Jenifer Lewis, American actress, spoke about her diagnosis on Oprah in September 2007.[88]
Bill Lichtenstein, print and broadcast journalist and documentary filmmaker, profiled in Time magazine, October 10, 1994.[89]
Jack London, American author [90]
Demi Lovato, American actress, singer, Disney star, revealed her illness in April 2011 in an interview with People magazine.[91][92]

M

Arthur McIntyre, Australian artist.[93]
Kristy McNichol, actress. The former child star and teen idol left the show Empty Nest due to her battle with the depression. McNichol later returned to the show for a few episodes during the series’ last season.[94][95][96][97]
Burgess Meredith, actor; with cyclothymia (milder bipolar disorder).[98]
Eric Millegan, actor, played Zack Addy on Bones. In 2009, Millegan released a YouTube video of how being bipolar affects his life. He has rapid-cycling bipolar disorder.
Kate Millett, author, The Loony-Bin Trip (1990) discusses her diagnosis of bipolar disorder, describing experiences with hospitalization and her decision to discontinue lithium therapy.
Spike Milligan, comedian.[99] Father of Monty Pythons Flying Circus
Ben Moody, musician. The former guitarist from Evanescence.[100]
Seaneen Molloy, Northern Irish blogger.[101]
John A. Mulheren, American financier, stock and option trader and philanthropist.[102]
Edvard Munch, artist.[103] “The Scream!”
Robert Munsch, author.[104]

N

Isaac Newton, mathematician/physicist: some sources say he had bipolar while others say he had schizophrenia. Uncertain. [105] [106]
Friedrich Nietzsche, philosopher.[107]
Florence Nightingale, nurse and health campaigner. BPW “Florence heard voices and experienced a number of severe depressive episodes in her teens and early 20s – symptoms consistent with the onset of bipolar disorder”, Dr. Kathy Wisner, a professor of psychiatry at the University of Pittsburgh Medical Center.[108]

O

Sinéad O’Connor, musician. She discussed her diagnosis in a Guardian interview in 2010.[109]
Graeme Obree, Scottish racing cyclist. World hour record 1993. Individual pursuit world champion in 1993 and 1995. Cited in 2003 autobiography, Flying Scotsman: Cycling to Triumph Through My Darkest Hours and 2006 film.
Phil Ochs, musician.[110]
Bill Oddie, naturalist, comedian and television presenter.[111][112]
Cheri Oteri, actress. Saturday Night Live Cast Member. Cited in Shales T.& Miller A. (2002) Live From New York, A Uncensored History of Saturday Night Live.
Craig Owens, singer for American bands Chiodos, and Destroy Rebuild Until God Shows.[113]

P

Nicola Pagett, actor. Wrote about her bipolar disorder in her autobiography Diamonds Behind My Eyes ISBN 0-575-60267-8
Emma Parker Bowles, model.[114]
Jaco Pastorius, jazz musician. “Jaco was diagnosed with this clinical bipolar condition in the fall of 1982. The events which led up to it were considered “uncontrolled and reckless” incidences.”[115]
Jane Pauley, TV presenter and journalist. The former Today and Dateline host describes being diagnosed with bipolar disorder in her autobiography “Skywriting: A Life Out of the Blue”, which she wrote in 2004, as well as on her short-lived talk show.[116][117][118][119][120][121]
Fernando Pessoa, Portuguese poet.[122]
Edgar Allan Poe, poet and writer, may have experienced bipolar disorder.[123][124][125]
Jackson Pollock, American artist.[103]
Odean Pope, American jazz musician.[126]
Gail Porter, British TV presenter.[127]
Emil Post, mathematician.[128]
Charley Pride, country music artist. (autobiography) Pride: The Charley Pride Story. Publisher: Quill (May 1995). “Pride discusses business ventures that succeeded and those that failed, as well as his bouts with manic depression. He tells his story with no bitterness but lots of homespun advice and humor.”

R

Gabriele Rabel, botanist, physicist[129]
Rene Rivkin, entrepreneur.[130]
Barret Robbins, former NFL Pro Bowler.[131]
Axl Rose, lead singer and frontman best known for Guns N’ Roses.[132] “I went to a clinic, thinking it would help my moods. The only thing I did was take one 500-question test – ya know, filling in the little black dots. All of sudden I’m diagnosed manic-depressive.”
Richard Rossi, filmmaker, musician, and maverick minister, revealed for the first time in a live interview on the Lynn Cullen show on June 5, 2008 the link between his artistic productivity and his depression to bipolar disorder, stating that “my father was bi-polar one, and I’m bi-polar two.” He spoke of the relationship between creativity and the illness.

S

Robert Schumann, German composer[133][134][135]
Nina Simone, American singer. Interview with her daughter Simone, The Sunday Times June 24, 2007[136]
Frank Sinatra, American singer and actor. “Being an 18-karat manic depressive, and having lived a life of violent emotional contradictions, I have an over-acute capacity for sadness as well as elation.”[137]
Michael Slater, International Australian cricketer, forced to retire because of related symptoms.[138][139]
Tony Slattery, actor and comedian.[45] “I rented a huge warehouse by the river Thames. I just stayed in there on my own, didn’t open the mail or answer the phone for months and months and months. I was just in a pool of despair and mania.” BBC Documentary[45]
Sidney Sheldon, producer, writer; wrote about being a victim of bipolar disorder in his autobiography The Other Side of Me.
Tim Smith, rugby league player whose career with NRL side Parramatta Eels was ended due to his bipolar condition, and pressure from the media.[140]
Alonzo Spellman, American football player [9]
Peter Steele, frontman, Type O Negative.[141][142]
David Strickland, Actor, Suddenly Susan.[143][144]
Poly Styrene (real name Marion Elliot-Said), singer.[145]
Stuart Sutherland, British psychologist and writer[146]

T

Mackenzie Taylor, British comedian.[147]
Michael Thalbourne, Australian psychologist and parapsychologist.[148]
Steven Thomas, American entrepreneur.[149][150]
Gene Tierney, Academy Award nominated actress, Best Actress (1945).[151]
Devin Townsend, musician, Strapping Young Lad, The Devin Townsend Band. He took himself off of his medication to write lyrics for Strapping Young Lad’s album Alien.[152]
Nick Traina, singer,[153] “in the last year of his life, he began telling people he was manic-depressive.”
Timothy Treadwell, American environmentalist and bear enthusiast, featured in the 2005 documentary film by Werner Herzog titled Grizzly Man.[154][155]
Margaret Trudeau, Canadian celebrity and ex-wife of former Canadian Prime Minister Pierre Elliot Trudeau (deceased). She now travels Canada and other countries speaking out against the stigmas on mental illness.[156]
Ted Turner, American media businessman.[157]

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V

Jean-Claude Van Damme, actor.[158][159]
Vincent Van Gogh, artist.[160][161][162] (among numerous other hypotheses)
Townes Van Zandt, singer-songwriter.[163]
Mark Vonnegut, author.[164]

W

James Wade, darts player.[165]
David Walliams, actor/comedian/author/charity fundraiser.[166][167]
Tom G Warrior- Lead singer/guitarist of heavy metal bands Celtic Frost, Apollyon Sun and Triptykon [168]
Ruby Wax, comedian.[169][170]
Scott Weiland, musician. (Stone Temple Pilots, Velvet Revolver)[171]
Pete Wentz, musician. Fall Out Boy[172]
Delonte West, American basketball player[173]
Mark Whitacre, business executive described in the true story movie, The Informant.[174]
Brian Wilson, musician, founding member of The Beach Boys.[175]
Amy Winehouse, musician[176]
Virginia Woolf, writer.[177]

Z

Catherine Zeta-Jones, actress, has bipolar II disorder.[178]

You are not alone Philip.

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The Chat Room

Second Life’s (sl) Chat room s divided into three elements in two windows. On the right is the name of the instigator :

LOCAL is where everyone in the local area chats. Friends and Instant Messages are displayed under local. Instant Messages are either between a person to a person or from a group you have joined.

In a chat room many abbreviations are used. Here is a taste:

TIME STAMP  NAME OF SPEAKER CONTENT   | EXPLANATION

[11:23 PM]  ĐŲĐĘ: ✰↑Good Morning↑✰   |
[11:23 PM]  ĐŲĐĘ: ….҈Bonjour…
[11:23 PM]  ĐŲĐĘ: ☼Hola☼A    | THIS IS CALLED A GESTURE. It is activated by a forward slash followed be an abbreviation
[11:23 PM]  ĐŲĐĘ: ✪ お早うございます ✪   |In this case it is /gm = good morning
[11:23 PM]  ĐŲĐĘ: ૐ Namaste ૐ
[11:23 PM]  ĐŲĐĘ: Hey
[11:23 PM]  ĐŲĐĘ: My rl & sl are fuseed   | rl = real life sl = second life fuseed = a spelling mistake for fused
[11:24 PM]  ĐŲĐĘ: Fused* | A correction format  = word plus *
[11:24 PM]  ĐŲĐĘ: brb   brb = be right back
[11:24 PM]  ĐŲĐĘ:  •✖•【 Huггץ  ßαck 】•✖• n | People in chat will say hb = hurry back or use a hb gesture
[11:25 PM]  ĐŲĐĘ: ……………doin stuff in rl or sl | an explanation
[11:25 PM]  ĐŲĐĘ: .
[11:25 PM]  ĐŲĐĘ: .
[11:25 PM]  ĐŲĐĘ: back   | You announce your return
[11:26 PM]  ĐŲĐĘ: ㋡ ->>༶|♫  Ŵëℓƈøмε ßαςк!!  It JuSt WaSn’T ThE SaMe WiThOuT YoU!! ☆|༶<<-㋡ A welcome back gesture
[11:26 PM]  ĐŲĐĘ: ty  | ty = thank you
[11:26 PM]  ĐŲĐĘ:    _      _                       _        _
[11:26 PM]  ĐŲĐĘ:    |  |   |  |                     |  |     |  |       | A WOOT gesture indicating happiness
[11:26 PM]  ĐŲĐĘ:    |  |   |  |   ___    ___  |  |_   |  |
[11:26 PM]  ĐŲĐĘ:    |  |/\|  | /  _  \ / _  \ |  __|  |  |
[11:26 PM]  ĐŲĐĘ:    \   /\   /  (_)  |  (_)  |  |_    |_|
[11:26 PM]  ĐŲĐĘ:     \/   \/  \___/\___/ \__|   (_)
[11:27 PM]  ĐŲĐĘ: Thes ar Gestures ok going to do my blog brb….
[11:27 PM]  Ðäńńęţţę ℱιяєℓутє is Offline  | In the local chat box I receive notification if a friend is online or offline

 

Here is a picture of the interface. Yes my partner and I are lying naked in bed.

The Chat window bottom left the avatar window various interface HUDS top right is a notification.

Getting the idea?

THE CHAT WINDOW :

lhs the Person or group who are chatting…You click on  them to chat to them using the by typing in the “click here to chat bar” The highlighted ones mean there is new chat you have not seen. The local chat which is being displayed is chat that is going on in your local environment. See the notification of who is  on line. These are your friends.

Chat in local requires concentration as there maybe numerous threads.

This will help in a chat room >>>>>>….hmmm wait a sec…..

 


 

 

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Hello world! Its Dude

Now who is my audience? The general public? Ok An explanation for the GP. Second Life is a chat room.  It has sims, Areas where people go to meet. There is often music there, with a live DJ. You are an avatar. You can dance by yourself with  someone or as part of a group dance. You chat. You can own your own place. oh my good god watch a vid. My Island Paradise .

 

It is possible to have partners. I have one.

 

[04:19 AM]  ĐŲĐĘ:  ╔╦═╦╗───╔╗╔╗────╔╗
[04:19 AM]  ĐŲĐĘ:  ║║║║╠═╦═╣╚╝╠═╦═╗║║
[04:19 AM]  ĐŲĐĘ:  ║║║║║╬║╬║╔╗║╬║╬║║║
[04:19 AM]  ĐŲĐĘ:  ╚═╩═╩═╩═╩╝╚╩═╩═╝╠╣
[04:19 AM]  ĐŲĐĘ:  ────────────────╚╝

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